February 2014 was when my son was conceived , July 2014 was when I found out I was 5 months pregnant, and November 5,2014 Vakis King Jr. was born ! At the time, I was hurt so deeply because I thought my life had ended. Once my doctor walked in and said, “Ms.Smith you're 5 months pregnant”,I couldn't believe his words. I thought I was dreaming. Only thing that was going through my mind was abortion abortion I can't raise no baby.I was only 15 Years of age, still young , in school, no job , and my mother was still taking care of me.
My mother was there with me inside the doctor's room with me when I found out that I was pregnant. She knew all along that I was pregnant but , I didn’t. She kept saying , “Tatii your stomach is getting hard and your boobs are getting big.” Then she asked me was I pregnant and I responded , “NO! I don’t want children until I’m 35 years old!” Then the next day after my younger sister’s party on July 17 , 2014 we went to the doctor and found out I was pregnant. I told my baby’s father when I came from the doctor I didn’t know how to tell him cause I was scared myself because a little person was growing inside of me. When I told him I was laughing because I was scared. I was on my way to his house but he was walking down the street and I said , “I’m pregnant”. He said , “WHAT”! I said , “I’m pregnant”. He walked off in shame. Later on that day me and his mother tried to talk to him but we couldn’t because he was crying and upset he said , “I can’t raise no baby , my whole life over”. The next day me and him was talking about how we were going to take care of the baby and deal with school at the same time.
Throughout my pregnancy my mother was my number 1 supporter. I thought my mother was going to leave my side but she was the only one that stayed by my side. The father of my child was there during my pregnancy also but , his side of the family and his mother wasn't. His mother was the one that said, “Keep the baby I don’t believe in abortions, or adoption”. She also told me, “I will be there for my grandson no matter what”. She made me feel like I had nothing to worry about, my son was going to be alright.
On the day of my baby shower I realized that what she had told me was nothing but a big lie. She didn’t even show up.She also didn’t show up to his 1st birthday party. At this point she started to piss me off because she called and said she was going and she was ready and then when we went to pick her up she said she didn’t want to go anymore because my family didn’t like her. I was so pissed because it’s not about them it was about Vakis and she wasted our gas and time.That made me think, she doesn’t love my baby. Even though she wasn’t there I was glad I had my mother and his father by my side.
For the baby shower and his first birthday my mother paid for everything: food , candy , cakes , drinks , decorations , etc. I'm young and unemployed if didn’t have my mother my son would’ve had nothing. Almost 2 years later and my mother helps me out even more. She watches him so I can go to school and she helps me with financially needs such as: diapers , milk , clothes , shoes , hair cut , and she pays for his day care.Vakis has a birthday coming up on the 5th of November , and my mother is paying for everything such as: cake , candy , clothes , shoes , party room , etc. If I Didn’t have my mother in my life i don’t know what I would do. I LOVE MY MOTHER WITH ALL MY HEART !
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